The new line I'm creating has taken all my strength and ambition, not to mention my sleep. I'm also drowning in uncertainty when it comes to how people will perceive it. I know my stuff is not that popular and I understand why it wouldn't appeal to a more general public but sometimes I wonder if I'm good at what I'm doing at all. Don't get me wrong, I have clients and people have worn my pieces proudly but there's this gloomy feeling that I'm not good enough. I believe it's probably due to my depression and poor self esteem. I've read a comment yesterday on another blog where a woman was saying that she believes a person's self esteem is reflected in the business they run and I couldn't agree more. My lack of self esteem has deterred me from making my work seen and also making it available out there. I've received countless proposals to pair up with other businesses that were definitely more popular than mine but I often refuse them because I feel I'm not a good match and my stuff would look ridiculous.
But I'm getting better at it. I don't make as many mistakes as I used to so I guess it's just a learning process. I've also started to work on myself a lot more and I believe things are going to be good. The last phrase alone is proof of my change as I was never optimistic about anything.
“Alice:How long is forever? White Rabbit:Sometimes, just one second.”
